♥ Guth Girl

three cheers for me.

– I can be responsible and serious when I need to be. – I love to make people laugh. – I live in the moment. – I’m sarcastic all the time. People tell me I’m so serious about it they can’t tell when I’m being sarcastic. – I love my friends deeply. – I HATE GROWING APART FROM FRIENDS! – I don’t like to miss people, I want to keep them all close to me. – I’m totally honest and embarrassment doesn’t come easily when I’m with my friends. – I contently find that many of the things I do are considered annoying. – I cry at the littlest things. Like if someone yells at me. I’m really kinda fragile, I’m easily hurt. Please don’t yell… or if Robert even jokes about hurting himself. I cry at that too. – I’d rather eat fast food than gourmet. – I tend to jump to conclusions. – I’m super stubborn. – I’m childish. – I forget things easily. – I crave attention. – When I get purposed to I hope its in Taco Johns. – I won’t wear a wedding ring for very long, so I hope he gets it out of a 25 cent machine. – I love to be in love. – I hate when I say stupid things in front of someone I care about. – I love marching band, and this years seniors are awesome and I’m gonna miss them all. – I probably won’t be able to do the stupid triple it chromatic scales all season. – I love weird nicknames. – I love to show off. – I am a little embarrassed about PDA but I’d rather do it in public than not at all. – I get so bored that I either wanna cry or scream or a combination of the two. – – And people who get mad at you for one small mistake. – – My dad is really annoying when he is hyper. – – I would rather text or message someone than talk to them on the phone. –

9:25 AM

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Okay so last night got really mad at Robert (the boyfriend) because a girl was gonna sleep with him at the dorms and he was going swimming with her in the morning and BLEH!! I mean I know the girl and she has a boyfriend and they are good friends too but still made me extremely pissed off. So I told him not to bother coming to the house and he frantically texted me trying to make it all better.

So this morning actually. Now he tried to call me on my cell phone which I ignored but then he called to house phone and I couldn't ignore it without my dad asking me questions. So I finally got to it on the final ring and when I tried to answer he wouldn't talk! I mean I heard other people in the back ground, but no matter how loud I screamed his name he wouldn't talk. Douche bag. Ugg.

He is such a jerk. I would definably have considered dumping him already if I didn't think he would go off and mortally wound himself. I mean when we first started dating I told him that the one thing that will always make me burst into tear is being yelled at. He replied with "I would never yell at you." HE YELLS AT ME ALL THE TIME!! Then gets pissed at me when I don't talk to him because I'm about to cry in front of a 100 people usually. Ugg! And thats not the start of it either.

I hope he finds a stupid self absorbed girl, falls in love with her, breaks up with me, then gets his heart crushed. I just want this to be over!

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